A blue moon ended the double-oh decade and I ended it with a few blue days. Back in 2000, at the start of the double-ohs, I participated in a program that has truly changed my life. I swallowed the red pill and became aware that I am the master of my fate. I create my reality. And, for the last ten years, reality has been an amazing ride – I took my first cruise (and seven more), I went whitewater rafting down the Colorado, I traveled to Europe for the first time, I met thousands of amazing people, had sex with hundreds of amazing men, started two new businesses, closed two new businesses, bought and sold investment real estate, lost lots of weight, gained lots of weight, made lots of money, spent lots of money, lost lots of money, learned, loved and lived very well.
Well, lately, I’ve forgotten that I created all of that. From nothing. I forgot that I don’t have to be at the impact of life. I forgot that I am not a victim of my circumstances. For the last year, I’ve been residing at a dip in the road. Money has been scarce, romance has been cruel, and food has been very (very) comforting but my clothes have not. I’ve been wallowing in woe is me, the world is mean, this isn’t it, it shouldn’t be this way. And it all feels really really real. I woke up this morning realizing that duh, I get to create again. A new year, a new decade. Who knows what opportunities life will present. Who knows what I’ll have to endure. Who knows? But, I get to create who I am going to be for all of it!
To that end, I’ve created three rules for the new year. They’re simple.
1. Choose. At any moment choose. Whether it’s the salad versus the burger (a real choice) or my bank balance (a tougher choice), choose.
2. Generate Satisfaction. One thing I know about me is that I will never be satisfied, it will never be enough. I must generated my own satisfaction. I must create being grateful. It’s not a natural state of being for me so I must be responsible for it if I want it.
3. It’s all good – it’s perfect just how it is. I say it all the time. It’s time to “be” it. What I’m doing right now is the most important thing in the world. There is no place else to be.
That’s it. The journey continues. I will enjoy the ride. Join me? I love you, and as always,
Peace.
Butch Leiber’s World Blog
Jan 012010
Ironic my friend, we both post at the start of the New Year about impending change and a new attitude. I pray it does happen for both of us.
One thing I know and believe. When I have an attitude of gratitude, it is impossible for me to be upset or angry. I just need to practice that more.